Focusing on the Fracture

I tend to spiral. Slipping up for me is a slippery slope. Lets use food as an example although I have noticed that this trend extends to most areas of my life. Satan is great at building me up whether its my since of entitlement or my pride. I tend to start out at the same place…I shouldn’t do this it wouldn’t be good for me. Our example Coke. I love Coke, Dr. Pepper and Sunkist, yes to a bad degree most likely. And every night I go to sleep saying I am going to drink less soda tomorrow. Then I wake up the next day go to work and I’m a little sluggish so the temptation starts, “you could just have one, its just one and your tired”. And after I give in it changes to well you’ve already had one what difference will 2 make. Or if I hold out to lunch then I get to lunch and it goes down the road of “you’ve done so well not drinking soda so far today you should enjoy lunch with one”. Some days I don’t give into temptation, whatever kind it is, but mostly in a given day I wont live up to my own and God’s law.

That’s where the focus comes in. I tend at this point to look at my brokenness and start to beat myself up. You know the whole what the heck this thing again when are you going to stop doing this. The beating can go on throughout the day until I’m exhausted and feeling not much like a child of one true God. Isn’t Satan great at stealing our joy. He wants us to focus on our weakness and our screw ups, but God delights in us…his children… as we are. Not just when we are fresh out of the tub and all sparkly and clean, but even after we have been eating and living with the pigs.

oink oink