Leonardo DiCaprio movies get me spiritually going

So one of the sadder commentaries on my spiritual life is that the last couple Leonardo DiCaprio movies that I have seen have had significant impact to my worldview.  In the words of cxlink, I should have less Leo, more Bible, but the spiritual uncomfortable-ness (is that a word?) has been hugely valuable.

Shortly, Blood Diamond really put me into a tailspin on how God could be both a good loving God and yet soveriegn.  These two elements don’t bother us in the US that much because we aren’t being mindlessly slaughtered with our families being raped / killed like in some parts of Africa.  By the grace of God, I was able to get through this struggle with no little help from CS Lewis and his book Problem of Pain which had the added bonus of having great heaven insights at the end.

But my most recent Leo flick was Body of Lies.  The conclusion that I came to from this film is that I don’t even grasp how much I have been given.  I am a white, male born into a stable, Christian family in the 21st century in the USA.  It is pretty easy to say that I live similar to royalty in every other era of the history of the world.  All of this isn’t to say that I should feel guilty about what I have been given, but my prideful, ungrateful (ie sinful) attitude of  “I earned what I have” is a total crock.  There is a world out there living in squalor and pain and difficulty.  Just because that world doesn’t come into my neighborhood other than through the movies that I get through Netflix doesn’t get me off the hook.

I do apologize for the rambling nature of this, but I have found the new sin area in my life that God is working on.  I need humility.  I need gratefulness.  I have little of either.  God forgive me.